It’s the third night this week I can’t sleep.
I’m not gonna lie, I’m turning into a bit of a mess. Insanely productive and money generating mess, but a mess nonetheless.
I saw one of my ex-lovers today. I couldn’t even have lunch with her for an hour without work thoughts pouring in.
Let’s rewind a bit, the start of the day at least was okay. Slept 9 hours. Woke up, and noticed it’s 11 am. Ah well, I needed that sleep. Then I started to wonder whether today is the day when I finally quit caffeine. You know, have headaches for a few days, and then less daily adrenaline/cortisol induced anxiety.
Then I just took my 100mg caffeine & 150mg l-theanine morning pill and moved on. Did my bed, scaled myself. Washed face, sat behind the computer, and the good old routine took over.
Are you still thinking about that caffeine pill? Relax, it’s harmless. Way better than your Starbucks coffee at least. Less caffeine content, and at least balanced with l-theanine to prevent you unknowingly becoming a jittering energy-crashing freak.
Four hours later, I woke up from my trance and realized I just got a ton of shit done. Get some food, and then continue for another hour or two until my brain wanted to explode.
Then the lunch thing came, where I really tried my best to be good company. I made her laugh a few times, I guess that’s a good thing. I also spent €40 on some pretty bad food and went way over my calories limit for the day – and I wasn’t even hungry to begin with.
The worst thing is, food made me tired and I skipped the group meditation which was the ONE thing I probably should have done for myself today.
Good job, bro. You really nailed that.
Came back home and guess what. Bass boosted in my ears, zone in. Two massive hours of getting shit done, and then my eyes sort of started to twitch. I was at a point where I was kind of running out of steam, and also pretty much demolished my huge to do list for the day.
You know, scheduling an interview and two pre-screening tasks, had 2 calls with 2 team members, onboarded a new client, did office hours for my team AND checked each of the 8 client’s weekly reports. Recorded an explanation of the welcome email flow and revenue sharing for a recent client and arranged the next days of interviews with my HR consultant.
Probably some more shit, but let’s not be nitpicky here. In the meanwhile, just the regular worries of roughly 16k of client money needing to come my way, booking last minutes flights and airbnbs…
Eh. Too tired to even write this shit now. After that, it was 10 pm anyway. Watched Iron Man 3 (pretty dope!) and couldn’t sleep after. Went for a walk and somehow came back with washing detergent.
What a catch huh, you must be proud of me, a real trophy.
So yeah, the moral of this story?
I don’t know, you tell me. Too tired for this shit. Thank god I got sleepy at least.