“I miss school. I know it sounds funny, but I fucking miss school.”
That´s the first time I heard someone say that sentence. Just think about it for a second. Did you ever hear anyone say that?
To give you a short background story, fast forward an hour or two before this magical sentence was uttered, I came to the La Barcelonetta beach, a friend was having a goodbye party. Now I wasn´t in a super mood to party or socialize, but I went anyway.
I come there, I don´t know anyone of the 50 people there, except my friend. So I chat to him for a bit, and then I kinda force myself to chat to other people. I first meet a Turkish couple which was very cool. My social mood improves and I end up chatting to other people soon.
While I chat to other people I relax. I take in the beauty of the beach, and the moment. A warm, summer night in Barcelona. Waves crashing, people having fun, drinking. Flickering lights everywhere. I realize I´m in a good place, and I´m grateful for a second.
And well, like attracts like, and I find myself chatting to these 2 Swiss girls. And during the course of the conversation, they surprise me a few times. They talk about some very “deep shit” topics, and I love it. I mean, it´s not usual, generally conversation topics are much different when I go out (clubs etc), but I like it.
We talk about dancing (we´re all dancers), I recommend them a cool street place in Barcelona where they can go for a session (MACBA). And then, after some time, after we talk about quite a few topics already and become kind of comfortable with each other, one of the girls drops the bomb.
“I miss school. I know it sounds funny, but I fucking miss school.”
I answer to her, “You know what, that´s pretty fucking cool!”
Turns out they dance professionally. Basically, every day they would go to class and… well, dance. And now during the summer break, they don’t have that. So she genuinely misses school.
And that got me thinking hard. I NEVER missed school or university. I mean, I liked certain aspects of both, but to actually miss it? Never. And I figured this is the situation for most people.
Now, my question here is (without an answer, sorry), why not? Why do we do things, we don´t end up missing. I guess that´s a measuring scale of how important a thing is to you.
For example, if I don’t exercise for a week, I miss it too much, I HAVE to do it. Don´t listen to music I like for too long? I HAVE to turn it on. Don´t write or create an expressive video for too long? It starts bubbling out to the surface.
I know we´re forced to go to school, but is there a way to change it? Those 2 girls obviously found a way, and I could see it on their face, it was a great way. And maybe it won´t work out with school for everyone.
What about your job. Do you miss it when you don´t work? Or you just can´t wait till the weekend starts? This one situation here is fully in your hands. Why not? What is the thing you are missing? Maybe you should be doing it? Granted, first as a hobby, later on, hopefully, as a profession.
It might be a scary question and it might complicate your life. But to carry a smile like that on your face, when you missing doing something, and you know you will get back to doing it very soon, that’s something worth discovering. Despite the scariness and confusion.
Be brave. And carry that smile 🙂
Peace out,
Bostjan
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